Hectic Day!

Disclaimer - Personal post


Today has been so incredibly stressful. I casually send off an email to see If I need to take these 2 classes before I start the credential program. TURNS OUT I DO. AND CLASSES START MONDAY.
so I race around campus, having people tell me different things, find out I need to apply to graduate school and go through them. I applied and am waiting to find out if I can register for classes, so I can get into the credential program.
Then I go to my work and tell my boss that I can't work mondays. He is pretty fine with this, but now my hours are down to 10/16 everyother week. So I somehow need to pay my bills working minimum wage that amount of hours, and prepare myself for taking two 500 level classes. alskdjfa;lkwejrwlkje. I don't even know if I am going to get into the program, if I am going to get into these classes, what the hell my life is going to be in 3 months, nonetheless if I have the heart and the patience and the everything to become a teacher. The good thing that has come out of this is that my dad agreed to pay for it. no questions asked. I feel so guilty about this. Like I am abusing his generosity. I didn't take my undergrad seriously and my GPA reflects this, but I know that i need some further education if I want to do anything with my life. I AM gratefully, incredibly grateful that I have been blessed with a parent that CAN and WILL financially support me when I am unable. I just feel uneasy about it because I hate being one of those girls that runs to Daddy's credit card. I talked to my mom about it (they are divorced) and I can tell that she's not happy about it. She wants me to be financially independent and try and do this on my own. I have a feeling that this is mainly because she is unable to help more than a few bucks here and there. ARGH.

I'm drinking a beer and am calming down. I keep repeating, "Whatever happens will happen, everything is out of my hands at this very moment so stop stressing" to myself, and it seems to be working a little. I just hate having everything so up in the air. And I need a job. and some money. I was gonna buy a handgun with my tax return. I've been thinking about it for awhile, and I really think it would be a good thing for me to have, but now that money needs to be put towards rent. I'm working 20 hoursish less a month, which is a good chunck of change. gah. STOP IT. okay. I think I need to go take a shower. That always makes me feel better.

Real life OMGBBQWTF!111!!!!!!1

Courtesy of failblog

MOMENT OF PANIC!

I am bored, at home alone with only my pseudo-screwdriver (it is orange/mango juice) to console me, when I click stumbleupon. It responds with something to the tune of, "Sorry, we are out of webpages within your interests, please select some more."
I respond with
[GAH! I searched for this one .gif that was perfect. Searched far too long for the un-messed with version of this:

But, that is not what I want. I don't care about that fugly chick with the car. But, I have been looking for over the appropriate amount of time for the pic I want. This will have to do instead. Elle is a sad panda indeed.]

then restart my computer.
Everything is fine now.
/whew.

So yeah, after searching for the right gif for about 20 minutes (I know!!) I think I'll just watch Arrested Development and knit.

Things that Irritate me: I

On google news, which I was looking at on my blackberry (!!!!!!!), the news story "Obama Arrives in Style" was ahead of "Israel pounds Hamas; rocket fire continues". >< /facepalm.


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Good news: while trying to link said news stories, I could not find the first online. Maybe they realized how completely irrevelant it was? (HOPEchangehopechange)
Bad news: the Obama story was from the Washington Post. GAH.

Supervolcano

Just sitting here browsing fark when this link pops up:

In recent years, Yellowstone's caldera has been rising thanks to uplifting magma beneath it—leading to more cracks, hot springs and even more frequent eruptions of Steamboat Geysers. Paired with the earthquakes, such magma movement might presage an eruption—either big or small. Unfortunately, scientists can't really predict when the next such eruption will happen, and the range of possibilities is large: from later today to a million years from now.

Has anyone else seen the discovery special, "Supervolcano"? This certifiably scares me. If the caldera were to erupt life as we know it would completely cease. The increase in the frequency of earthquakes scares me. The idea of the sky being blotted out by smoke and ash scares me. What my neighbors would do in this event scares me. The fact that Adam is visiting his mom, and not up here in Chico scares me. Gah! I need to go watch Wall-E again.

I know, I know, I do have a tendency to make everything a bigger deal than it really is. (although, if this were to happen, it would be a pretty freaking garganuatan ordeal.) The likely hood that this will happen in my lifetime is null. BUT IT WILL HAPPEN. That is the scary part, I guess. All this uncertainty of when (enter any number of) catastrophic events will happen, and the knowledge that they will happen someday really irks me. I am even the type of person that is a little freaked out by the idea that the sun will engulf the earth in a few million years.

Ok. I need to stop. On a lighter note, I got a Blackberry pearl yesterday and have browsed the internet from the toilet. There is no greater feeling. Ha!